Wow: Breastfeeding is done?

Just like that my Belle doesn't want my milk anymore.   I have been saying that I can't wait for this time to be done.  I also always said I would just follow her lead and I figured she'd let me know when she was ready to be done.  We have been down to the night time feed for a long time.  Now for the past two nights she has just fought out of the blue and sleeps just fine without me.   It's a case of I just wish I knew that I was having my last feed, just to say goodbye.  She's healthy and beautiful but not particularly cuddly.  My feeds with her were the only times when we were both still.  I am going to miss it.  But my gosh she is beautiful.  Mommies just enjoy when you can as it really can end suddenly.

Recipe Time: Veggie here I go

So I think I am going to do it.  I am going to try to do the veggies meals regularly as in most everyday during the week and I found my guide.  http://peasandthankyou.com/recipage/ I'll grab the book from the library, in addition to my favourite, La Dolce Vegan, http://www.govegan.net/ .  My hubby will likely notice by day three but we'll see and I'll chart the adventure.  Gracie and I both do better on a veggie diet so let's see where it takes us.  I am not sure how it will go over, the wife of an Italian and the grand daughter of a German Metzger (butcher) but it will be fun.  Wish me well.

Let's talk parenting taboos: Rufus Griscom + Alisa Volkman | Video on TED.com

Let's talk parenting taboos: Rufus Griscom + Alisa Volkman Video on TED.com

I know in my last post I indicated that I would share a few family recipes. It was hubby's birthday and I promised him ribs, grandma's banana cake with peanut butter frosting. Well guess what. I was busy. Working , day care pick-up and dealing with a little sick baby. Life got in the way. He got a McCain Deep and Delicious chocolate cake, with pizza and wings. And you know what? He was still incredibly happy! Guys love those cakes. I don't get it.

Instead I opted to share this video. When I am having horrible moments in motherhood I think of this talk. When I am terrified I am going to ruin my Belle because I am horrible wench of a mom, this video makes me smile. I am not the only one who feels lonely, a failure, hating myself for not loving be a mom, wanting more, not understanding what my new life is going to be etc. It helps and is bloody brilliant. Enjoy mommies and friends.